Seeking Him

The Theory of Eternal Dating

How can you be 33 and still act like you’re 13 when it comes to boys? Sure, I’ve come to the realization that a small piece of my heart is in Peru…but is it because of everyone’s voice asking, “Why not him?” that has got me to this place, or is it God-driven?

I am at a point in my life where I know that I have the God-given desire to be with a man who is strong in his faith. I don’t want to waste 0is it really – waste?!) my time getting my head wrapped up in girlish fantasies. I don’t want God to slip below a man on my list of priorities. I beleive I am where I am because I continue to challenge myself to remain faithful to God – my savior. Why am I overanalyzing this…relationship – of whatever depth it it? How do I keep it God-centered? How do I keep God in control of the path?

I guess I need to stop looking for nonexistent hidden meanings and take each thing as it comes. It is what it is – two people conversing and making small talk. No dreams of a foreign land – no hopes that could be dashed. It is not fair to either of us to create an aura of expectations that cannot be met unless we take the reigns from God and steer us to what we want.

God’s good and perfect timing is what is required. God’s will and the faithfulness to hold steadfast to his gentle nudging. Faith is required to reveal the truth.

So, I am done talking about this to others and asking for outside hlep. I know we are to seek wise counsel but right now – I believe the static will only blur the image of God. I need to remain grounded in my faith that all will be revealed when God is ready for me to see.

***What I’m looking for***

  1. Someone who is strong in their faith in God…I want to have someone to walk alongside with…and who will push me to grow deeper…and they must, must, must be involved in their church (for the “right” reasons!)…
  2. Someone who is good with kids…patient…they have to be able to bond with J so we are a family unit…
  3. Someone who is emotionally healthy…we all have our shiz to deal with, but how do they process? Are they optimistic in life? Do we balance each other with our similarities and differenes? Or are we so completely opposite that we can’t see eye-to-eye (that’s a what NOT to date!)…
  4. Someone who understands that I am independent because of my circumstances, yet will help me to let go and can be patient with me through the process…we should still have separate interests so we can work on our earthly relationships…it’s not all about them, or me…
  5. Someone who understands the importance of balance and tries to build margin into their lives…
  6. Someone who values family…their morales were developed and modeled by their family and their church…
  7. …and the list goes on…while I pray and see what God reveals…
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